It happened when I watched this video.
And, more specifically..it happened when I read the video description.

I have had a lot of death in my family. Human death. Its been happening pretty much since I was born, however..ive never ever had a “pet” die. I dont really even like referring to our little furrie companions as “pets.” Claude is not my pet. We have a relationship. I take care of him and he loves me and I love him. He really loves both me and Soda a lot and its very obvious to us. Just the other day Claude was laying on the back of the couch and Soda came home. Whenever we come home we just drop everything and run to greet him because hes been left without us for a while. So Soda came up to him and put his face about a foot away from Claudes and said..”Hey Claude..youre sleepy..I can tell” then Claude reached out as far as he could just to touch Sodas face. He is our friend.

A lot of people dont understand this relationship that some humans have with our animal companions. Even some “pet owners” dont understand it. You raise this creature, it is not even a human, it cannot identify with us as humans, we cannot identify with them as animals yet we raise them and we care for them and we form special bonds with them, strong bonds. For a lot of people, our kitties or our dogs or what have you are there for us always. They dont ever hate us. And, if they get mad, theyre only mad for a little while. They are loyal and loyalty is something that we humans have forgotten all about. It doesnt matter how we treat our little friends, they are always happy to see us, they comfort us when we are sad, they make us laugh, and they heal us. The benefits of having an animal around is not disputed.

Its a bond that is really, unmatched I think. They do not call us names, they do not turn their backs on us, they do not hurt us. We are not their masters, we are their companions.

So…needless to say..that video was almost too much for me to handle. Ive never lost an animal. Ive never lost a friend. I really cant imagine how I am going to feel if something were to happen to Claude. I try my hardest to keep him very protected. When I adopted him, I told him that I would always try to keep him safe and that he wouldnt ever have to be in a shelter again or in a home where he was unloved and neglected. I would try my hardest to keep him safe and protected from harm. When you take on the responsibility of caring for a creature, you make that unspoken vow to them. So when you lose them and it is out of your control and you just wonder if they are scared and you are hurting because youve broken that vow even though you couldnt help it…I just cant imagine it, really.