Everyone knows that I have severe panic problems. Good news in that department..I am probably gonna be going to the doctor sometime this week so I can get my shit LEGALLY…;) . Anyway, lol. Yesterday I took notice of something I do compulsively ever since I had that super weird “panic attack” thing last August. I check my pulse, and Sodas pulse..constantly. I check mine every 5 minutes or so..by feeling my neck..right in the center of my collarbone, but when Soda is sleeping I noticed that I check his pulse through his wrist. Its really strange..and sort of creepy.

Anyway. I gotta get my anxiety issues under control. Bring on the benzos!